duminică, 1 noiembrie 2009

one of the many chapters

...a quiet evening at the fortress [part 2] in which Aaniah visits the oracle and tells him about the only clue she has to her lost memory:

„Every night I have this dream, and it's reminding me how lost I am, because there are so many events happening around me, things that don't seem to matter, and I don't manage to fit in. I feel like waiting for something to happen, something to come and break the silence. In my dream, I am looking at my own reflection in the river, standing on the edge of a cliff. I see someone that resembles me, but I don't recognize myself. Then, I feel fear, which is a very misteryous feeling for me, a feeling I don't recall knowing in the real life. I turn around, but I see nothing but the endless darkness of the forest. And then, without any hesitation, I jump. As I dive into the icy coldness of the water, I remain perfectly aware of the fact that I am about to drown, but I suddenly feel no fear, and I open my eyes and see how the moonlights fade away as I am sinking deeper and deeper, the water surrounding me from everywhere. I feel its coldness, and its familiar taste confuses me as my last breathe of air fades, and I begin to suffocate, slowly and motionless.”

„Is this the reason you seemed to be so distracted lately?” He was curious, and yet, not surprised.

„It's true that the meaning of my dream has clearly influenced my dedication towards... everything. But now I finnaly came to understand, when if not completely, at least partially, it's true purpose, and that is reminding me the need of escape. I need to get out of the fortress, to seek further.”

„I was affraid you will sooner or later realise this, that your path will lead you beyond these walls, there, where the wildness rules over the unknown. You are so young, and I admire youre courage of telling me your intentions. And I understand now that you have come to ask me about a way to leave this place.”

„I know that my whole life so far, the life I can remember, is bound to this place, and to these people. And I own them everything I am so far, but I am convinced that somewhere out there are lieing pieces of me that I to find. My past, my purpose, my identity. I find no reason to stay, and know no way to leave. So yes, I ask for your help.”

„Then follow me”, he said.